apa yang ingin gw gambarkan perasaan gw saat ini, semuanya terasa begitu cepat dan ga bisa di kendalikan. tidak ada yang menyangka terjadi dan menjadi seperti ini.
i've a boyfriend now. he's name robin sinaga, long story about him and me. apa yang gw rasa saat ini, susah di artiin. semuanya begitu cepat. i can't image going out with him. but now, if you ask me i love him or not, i'll answer YES. hehe *malu
you now why i love him, BECAUSE he always accepted me, ya its me. (ap, thanks about everything you give for me. teach me, love me, listen, anything you can do for me. tomorrow is 14th, 2 months, our anniversary) *sweet

semua jadinya berubah begitu aja, tidak tau mana yang benar dan salah. kenapa semuanya berubah dengan cepat. dan kenapa harus terus saling menyakiti? bukannya kalau udah siap dalam menyayangi orang kita harus terima dalam sedih dan senangnya.

harus kah semuanya diumbar dan membuat presepsi yang salah karena hal itu? why you have to hurt my feelings? maybe I'm wrong for making you wait but should I receive if I have not got a match?

I know now, and I got the answer from all of this. I'm not the best for you, and you are not the best for me. something simple but hard to understand. maybe after this we will never be the same again. but thanks.

I'm not a perfect girl. please, but don't make people think I'm bad. I'm really bad? oh please, stop it!!

I don't know that it's all just a passing story. I kept asking and thinking about all that passed, but the more I think, the more I can't see the truth.
but when the truth came, I approve what God wanted in my life.
I agreed and let it pass.
life is not a negotiation but an agreement with the Gods.

you fly too fast

I can't say to others, how I want to grab you. You fly too fast and high.

many places are you going through. enjoy the fresh air,

so that you can continue to fly to train your speed.

beautiful when you fly with your beautiful wings.

to feel your natural beauty, but you're flying too fast so I couldn't follow.

I left the room away from your nature,

so that I could just feel the wonderful stories that you're going through.

not from you but from widespread wind

sorry

something going on in my life, I don't know why can occur. I was so cruel to do that to my friends. yes I was wrong because it away but this is the best for now.
I don't understand why can feel this, I don't get along with her. but she's my friend.I just wanted to quickly pass and return to normal without having to feel this oddity.
maybe because I feel she doesn't take me or I just feel for losing her?
for sure I did a big mistake by trying to get away from her. I feel empty, but if I get closer to her, will only increase the pain of my heart.
Oh God can you help me? what should I do if I don't know what I'm doing.

I loved her but because of a hurt me, I distanced myself from her. if she feel it?
honestly, I don't want to do it but by accident I've distanced myself.

* sorry if you feel it, honestly I don't want to get away from you but I felt something I can't explain.

I hope this feeling quickly disappears and everything returns to normal.
sorry *

january

This month's very exciting, I got a new activity. I became a member naposobulung.

for you who don't know naposobulung, it is the youth at church.

This association is a spiritual ministry. I could forget something and go with something new. really fun. have you felt the entrance to the new environment and feel a different person withyourself and can have fun with them.

God has a wonderful plan in every human life, and grief will come happiness

myar

oh GOD.... I MISS MYAR

day of the walk and not be stopped, we as humans can only try our best to live it and not damage or pass a second time goes on. the past only the past that become memories in the future and learning for the future. did you know, as bad or as good as any memory of it, will remain a distant memory. so better to let it become a pile of paper in each book that will be created in the future.

time wasted can not be replaced

I know it's not easy and clearly whatever it's not easy because to forget something that we didn't really want.
I don't know why so want to remember, I can forget it and live as before but somehow I wasn't willing.
I don't want to be a stupid woman who really like someone but who knows about life.

I don't know him very well but I really want him. explain something that is difficult to describe is very annoying, I can't explain why I could be like this, want someone who I didn't know his personality

he was real, clear and visible to his attitude but it was hard to be touched and understood. difficult for the search for truth in his eyes.

i call him "m . y . a . r"

what happened 2 weeks already explained what I question in mind. he doesn't like me. I know that, although several people told me to say hello in the chat. but without having to do it I already knew what would happen, he wouldn't reply.

now I just keep quiet and let this feeling is lost, because I wasn't able to declare to him that I liked him. every person who I asked, always say "tell him you love him, whatever will he give the answer don't be thinking right now"

BUT I CAN'T ! BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE COURAGE IN ME. maybe I'll make this story into a story that I call m. y. a. r

ya gonna do now that my activity. It is the last memory in 2010, and I'll remember and tell you a lot because I get a story that is fun and interesting.

last memories in 2010 M . Y . A . R

I MISS YOU