apa yang ingin gw gambarkan perasaan gw saat ini, semuanya terasa begitu cepat dan ga bisa di kendalikan. tidak ada yang menyangka terjadi dan menjadi seperti ini.
i've a boyfriend now. he's name robin sinaga, long story about him and me. apa yang gw rasa saat ini, susah di artiin. semuanya begitu cepat. i can't image going out with him. but now, if you ask me i love him or not, i'll answer YES. hehe *malu
you now why i love him, BECAUSE he always accepted me, ya its me. (ap, thanks about everything you give for me. teach me, love me, listen, anything you can do for me. tomorrow is 14th, 2 months, our anniversary) *sweet

semua jadinya berubah begitu aja, tidak tau mana yang benar dan salah. kenapa semuanya berubah dengan cepat. dan kenapa harus terus saling menyakiti? bukannya kalau udah siap dalam menyayangi orang kita harus terima dalam sedih dan senangnya.

harus kah semuanya diumbar dan membuat presepsi yang salah karena hal itu? why you have to hurt my feelings? maybe I'm wrong for making you wait but should I receive if I have not got a match?

I know now, and I got the answer from all of this. I'm not the best for you, and you are not the best for me. something simple but hard to understand. maybe after this we will never be the same again. but thanks.

I'm not a perfect girl. please, but don't make people think I'm bad. I'm really bad? oh please, stop it!!

I don't know that it's all just a passing story. I kept asking and thinking about all that passed, but the more I think, the more I can't see the truth.
but when the truth came, I approve what God wanted in my life.
I agreed and let it pass.
life is not a negotiation but an agreement with the Gods.

you fly too fast

I can't say to others, how I want to grab you. You fly too fast and high.

many places are you going through. enjoy the fresh air,

so that you can continue to fly to train your speed.

beautiful when you fly with your beautiful wings.

to feel your natural beauty, but you're flying too fast so I couldn't follow.

I left the room away from your nature,

so that I could just feel the wonderful stories that you're going through.

not from you but from widespread wind

sorry

something going on in my life, I don't know why can occur. I was so cruel to do that to my friends. yes I was wrong because it away but this is the best for now.
I don't understand why can feel this, I don't get along with her. but she's my friend.I just wanted to quickly pass and return to normal without having to feel this oddity.
maybe because I feel she doesn't take me or I just feel for losing her?
for sure I did a big mistake by trying to get away from her. I feel empty, but if I get closer to her, will only increase the pain of my heart.
Oh God can you help me? what should I do if I don't know what I'm doing.

I loved her but because of a hurt me, I distanced myself from her. if she feel it?
honestly, I don't want to do it but by accident I've distanced myself.

* sorry if you feel it, honestly I don't want to get away from you but I felt something I can't explain.

I hope this feeling quickly disappears and everything returns to normal.
sorry *

january

This month's very exciting, I got a new activity. I became a member naposobulung.

for you who don't know naposobulung, it is the youth at church.

This association is a spiritual ministry. I could forget something and go with something new. really fun. have you felt the entrance to the new environment and feel a different person withyourself and can have fun with them.

God has a wonderful plan in every human life, and grief will come happiness

myar

oh GOD.... I MISS MYAR

day of the walk and not be stopped, we as humans can only try our best to live it and not damage or pass a second time goes on. the past only the past that become memories in the future and learning for the future. did you know, as bad or as good as any memory of it, will remain a distant memory. so better to let it become a pile of paper in each book that will be created in the future.

time wasted can not be replaced

I know it's not easy and clearly whatever it's not easy because to forget something that we didn't really want.
I don't know why so want to remember, I can forget it and live as before but somehow I wasn't willing.
I don't want to be a stupid woman who really like someone but who knows about life.

I don't know him very well but I really want him. explain something that is difficult to describe is very annoying, I can't explain why I could be like this, want someone who I didn't know his personality

he was real, clear and visible to his attitude but it was hard to be touched and understood. difficult for the search for truth in his eyes.

i call him "m . y . a . r"

what happened 2 weeks already explained what I question in mind. he doesn't like me. I know that, although several people told me to say hello in the chat. but without having to do it I already knew what would happen, he wouldn't reply.

now I just keep quiet and let this feeling is lost, because I wasn't able to declare to him that I liked him. every person who I asked, always say "tell him you love him, whatever will he give the answer don't be thinking right now"

BUT I CAN'T ! BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE COURAGE IN ME. maybe I'll make this story into a story that I call m. y. a. r

ya gonna do now that my activity. It is the last memory in 2010, and I'll remember and tell you a lot because I get a story that is fun and interesting.

last memories in 2010 M . Y . A . R

I MISS YOU

Britney spears - my only wish this year

"My Only Wish This Year"

Last night I took a walk in the snow.
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love.

Santa can you hear me
I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off
It just said this
I know exactly what I want this year.
Santa can you hear me.
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.
oohhh ohh yeah
Christmas Eve I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong for taking a peek?
Cause I heard that your coming to town

Santa can you hear me? (yea yeah)
Really hope that your on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Ohh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me
I want my baby (baby)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me
Maybe (maybe maybe) we'll be all the love under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here santa thats my only wish this year
I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me love can call all mine
(yeah yeah) cause I have been so good this year.

Can't be alone under the mistletoe
He's all want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want. just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (ohh yeah) santa thats my only wish this year
Oh santa can u hear me? oh santa
Well hes all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree
Oh I'll be waiting here
Santa thats my only wish this year.

I fell it again

I feel like it again. I really felt it with him. oh wait, he is a new person in my life. he came and made me feel the feelings. I really feel it?
hmmm, can I get an answer before Christmas arrives? because I wanted to celebrate Christmas with him and share the joy of Christmas with him.
I'm afraid to say like him now, because it's too soon to say love. I just know him 3 weeks, and met 2 times.
whether it is too fast?

December will come and the atmosphere of Christmas is felt now. I'm very excited. I feel very happy Christmas, it makes me smile every day.
Christmas is the birth of the king of Israel, very grand and noble. I feel the passion felt by everyone who celebrate it.
Christmas means a lot to me, because I celebrate it with joy.
I always hear Christmas songs in every place, there's always Christmas fixtures at each place. very beautiful, right?

The First Noel

The First Noel, the Angels did say
Was to certain poor shepherds in fields as they lay
In fields where they lay keeping their sheep
On a cold winter's night that was so deep.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

They looked up and saw a star
Shining in the East beyond them far
And to the earth it gave great light
And so it continued both day and night.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

It's very beautiful, very beautiful! I'm glad I could celebrate Christmas. when I listen to Christmas songs, how many times I smiled. meaning of Christmas is always I keep to myself

I can't wait to feel the Christmas. December I'm in love

long long D A Y

long time not writing in my blog. My life was going so fast, but not one i miss. hmmm, today i was not feeling good. oia, did i tell something? i've talked to 'fish'. hmm, do you know who the fish? a swim and have fins. ya i'm like a crazy person talking to fish. hehe.

today, i'm really tired! create a new passport. and should return home only to retrieve the original file. it makes me annoyed. and thursday should come again for the photo, and i don't know when it will be finished, oh indonesia ..

if it had not already bought a ticket to Singapore, i'm not going to make a passport today. it really makes my mood ruined. damn! can i complain? why indonesia is always making trouble all do something? gezzz ... Okeh, stop talking bout indonesia. even so, this is still my country where i was born and raised.

This day i completed market research reports, waw was very tiring. enough to make my body tired. but, my job much more. ohh, can i miss it? somebody tell me! college is very troublesome.

for something I can't describe it. I don't know, I can't understand. feel happy when I saw and heard, really beautiful isn't it?
understand all that is past, and think about it again. so lucky I can feel it. Could I see again?
I wanna say, "I feel it, it was beautiful. Is that love? make smile and see the beautiful day"

WELCOME OCTOBER

say hello october! beginning of the month with good weather and the beautiful blue sky.

This month begins with a smile and pray.

Friday afternoon

I woke up from sleep and my body aches. oh no! what's wrong with my head?

beautiful Friday afternoon, no rain but I like the sky. blue and windy.

I like to see and feel the Friday afternoon. by drinking mineral water, my heart calm and cool.

I see trees and flowers move to follow the rhythm of the wind. I like it!

I LOVE FRIDAY AFTERNOON!!

KRIUK on the day

HUJAN!!!!! tapi tenang, hujan ini ga bikin bt kok. soalnya, sekarang lagi kriuk-kriuk sama my best friend --->> TRI PUSPITA SARI.

Omong-omong tentang kriuk, kriuk what is it? itu tempat makan yang lumayan cozy, deket rumah lagi. jadinya bisa sampe malem. ada wifi pula, makin ASIK deh nih tempat. my favorite place.

come on, follow me:

first, this woman ITA

Second, POMPOM FRIES AND MEAT LOVERS KRIUK

pompom fries nya udah tinggal 4 buah, tadinya ada 8 buah dengan harga IDR 7000. murah kan? ya untuk anak kuliahan seperti kita. :p.

meat lovers kriuknya udah tinggal satu potong, sisanya di perut saya.

third, ORANGE SQUASH FLOAT AND STRAWBERRY FLOAT

fourth, SECOND DRINK. VANILLA LATTE AND CARAMEL LATTE

fifth, THIS IS WE!!

falling in love or broken heart

Hujan deres banget, mana mellow lagi lagu-lagu di kriuk. Makin berasa "duh gw kok miris banget ya masalah percintaan". Itu tuh efek dari lagu mellow plus di dukung sama suasana yang ngebunuh banget. Ya like now. *sambilbersin-bersin*

Kalau dibilang berguna banget atau ga lagu-lagu mellow, duh sebenernya males deh kalau lagi buruk percintaannya. Ya like i feel now, (wah ketauan deh :p). Kalau lagi patah hati mending denger lagu dari band-band rock, jadinya bisa scream. Daripada denger lagu mellow, ada nya nanti ambil parang terus gorok leher. haha, agak lebay sih. Cuma emang suka gitu kan.

Apa sih patah hati itu? hmm, hati yang patah. (bodohnya lo best). haha. Tergantung sih sebenernya patah hati itu apa, tergantung situasi dan tanggapan yang merasa lagi patah hati. Omong-omong soal patah hati, apa obatnya? coba para ilmuan luar bisa nemuin obatnya, pasti laku banget di dunia. Gw yang ngurus marketingnya deh. Mulai random deh.

Kalau lagi jatuh cinta tuh dunia berasa milik sendiri, tapi kalau lagi patah hati dunia berasa milik IBLIS. world can make us silent in the crowd. It was a broken heart. not only silent but can cry in solitude, unable to feel the warmth of love. pedih banget ya rasanya. but, don't worry guys. just like the rain, will stop when it was enough to sad.

Stop talking 'bout broken heart, now talking 'bout falling in love. hmm, yummy feel so happy when falling in love, full of flowers in your mind.

actually now I'm in love and broken with a one guy. geeez, how could he do this to me? I can't understand it. (dasar ikan). haha. when i feel im in love with him, wah ini bener apa ga ya? walau, udah lost contact tapi can smile when i know he finished his day with a good. gw ga patah hati kok, malah lagi jatuh cinta. asikasikasik, haha.

core of this post, don't ever be afraid to fall in love. broken heart that's one beauty of falling in love. keep giving spirit to her/him that we love. no matter he/she belongs to us or not. because love doesn't knows status