I know it's not easy and clearly whatever it's not easy because to forget something that we didn't really want.
I don't know why so want to remember, I can forget it and live as before but somehow I wasn't willing.
I don't want to be a stupid woman who really like someone but who knows about life.

I don't know him very well but I really want him. explain something that is difficult to describe is very annoying, I can't explain why I could be like this, want someone who I didn't know his personality

he was real, clear and visible to his attitude but it was hard to be touched and understood. difficult for the search for truth in his eyes.

i call him "m . y . a . r"

what happened 2 weeks already explained what I question in mind. he doesn't like me. I know that, although several people told me to say hello in the chat. but without having to do it I already knew what would happen, he wouldn't reply.

now I just keep quiet and let this feeling is lost, because I wasn't able to declare to him that I liked him. every person who I asked, always say "tell him you love him, whatever will he give the answer don't be thinking right now"

BUT I CAN'T ! BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE COURAGE IN ME. maybe I'll make this story into a story that I call m. y. a. r

ya gonna do now that my activity. It is the last memory in 2010, and I'll remember and tell you a lot because I get a story that is fun and interesting.

last memories in 2010 M . Y . A . R

I MISS YOU

Britney spears - my only wish this year

"My Only Wish This Year"

Last night I took a walk in the snow.
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love.

Santa can you hear me
I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off
It just said this
I know exactly what I want this year.
Santa can you hear me.
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.
oohhh ohh yeah
Christmas Eve I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong for taking a peek?
Cause I heard that your coming to town

Santa can you hear me? (yea yeah)
Really hope that your on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Ohh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me
I want my baby (baby)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me
Maybe (maybe maybe) we'll be all the love under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here santa thats my only wish this year
I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me love can call all mine
(yeah yeah) cause I have been so good this year.

Can't be alone under the mistletoe
He's all want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want. just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (ohh yeah) santa thats my only wish this year
Oh santa can u hear me? oh santa
Well hes all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree
Oh I'll be waiting here
Santa thats my only wish this year.

I fell it again

I feel like it again. I really felt it with him. oh wait, he is a new person in my life. he came and made me feel the feelings. I really feel it?
hmmm, can I get an answer before Christmas arrives? because I wanted to celebrate Christmas with him and share the joy of Christmas with him.
I'm afraid to say like him now, because it's too soon to say love. I just know him 3 weeks, and met 2 times.
whether it is too fast?

December will come and the atmosphere of Christmas is felt now. I'm very excited. I feel very happy Christmas, it makes me smile every day.
Christmas is the birth of the king of Israel, very grand and noble. I feel the passion felt by everyone who celebrate it.
Christmas means a lot to me, because I celebrate it with joy.
I always hear Christmas songs in every place, there's always Christmas fixtures at each place. very beautiful, right?

The First Noel

The First Noel, the Angels did say
Was to certain poor shepherds in fields as they lay
In fields where they lay keeping their sheep
On a cold winter's night that was so deep.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

They looked up and saw a star
Shining in the East beyond them far
And to the earth it gave great light
And so it continued both day and night.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the King of Israel!

It's very beautiful, very beautiful! I'm glad I could celebrate Christmas. when I listen to Christmas songs, how many times I smiled. meaning of Christmas is always I keep to myself

I can't wait to feel the Christmas. December I'm in love

long long D A Y

long time not writing in my blog. My life was going so fast, but not one i miss. hmmm, today i was not feeling good. oia, did i tell something? i've talked to 'fish'. hmm, do you know who the fish? a swim and have fins. ya i'm like a crazy person talking to fish. hehe.

today, i'm really tired! create a new passport. and should return home only to retrieve the original file. it makes me annoyed. and thursday should come again for the photo, and i don't know when it will be finished, oh indonesia ..

if it had not already bought a ticket to Singapore, i'm not going to make a passport today. it really makes my mood ruined. damn! can i complain? why indonesia is always making trouble all do something? gezzz ... Okeh, stop talking bout indonesia. even so, this is still my country where i was born and raised.

This day i completed market research reports, waw was very tiring. enough to make my body tired. but, my job much more. ohh, can i miss it? somebody tell me! college is very troublesome.